Monday, April 20, 2009

20.04.2009


Today i feel better compared to yesterday. Yesterday, I hope to go a place which nobody know me, nobody can see me even contact me. But it was rainning yesterday. I was going to hospital. On the way, there was a uncle, he walked to me and asked me whether I need any help or not. Actually i was very scared, but I still answered him:" I want go to the St.Vincent Hospital." He asked me to follow him, i was scare, but i still followed him. He keep asking me question, ask me:" what is ur name? where do you live? where are you come from? go hospital for what? then introduce himself to me. OMG!! I really worried on that time. I want ran away, but i was not dare to do so.
I went to St.Vincent hospital at king cross to visit a friend. He is ill because of the lung problem, but now is much better ady, mayb he can go home by today. Hope he will be fine and take care well of himself. Yesterday when i saw him, suddenly i felt very stranger, we dint chat. It's look like I just pass through the hospital not go for a visiting. I was moody for these few day, summore the sky kept darker, raining cat and dog. I hate my life, actually if yeaterday there was no rain, mayb i will go luna park, easter show or go for a movie alone. After that, I went to city alone. I went to market city. I went to "games centre", suddenly remind me some of the memories. I ate sushi alone at there. Bull shit~~ who told me that the sushi at market city are valuable!! the sushi are very small. I think sushi train is better than them. I cant find out a more comforatble way to abreact. I want to talk to somebody, but i donno i want to talk with who. I am very confused. I donno what i want and what i had done. I dint care about other ppl feeling, I just do what i want to do. Now only I realized that I am too selfish. Now, I do not need any guy to care about me, because I distrust any guy. Actually i'm a person who need care and love. I need the tender solicitude of somebody. Maybe i demanded somethings without measure. I am particular to a fault. I really donno what should i do. But now I feel better ady.

9 comments:

  1. 从你家到这些地方会很远吗?
    一个人走也是一种放肆心情的好方法。
    你在那边一个人走,那边的治安应该是会比我们这里好吧?
    但是也是要有警惕的心。
    你那个朋友是谁呢?你们刚认识吗?
    其实你真正伤心的原因是什么呢?什么事搞到你那样?指从你去了那边后,怎么都没有听到你开心过的。。。
    是不是在那边很多作业忙不完?还是那边的人不友善,你被他们欺负?

    其实,不是每个男生都是你想象中那样。你不信他们,没关系。可是我不相信那么多个里面你认识的没有一个是可以对你好的。
    也许那个好的是没有你要的条件。
    人,偏偏就是喜欢那些难得到的东西,你爱的人是他之前种下的福气让你爱上了他。但是爱你的人是你种下的福气让他爱你。
    你希望照顾的人是你爱的人还是爱你的人呢?
    很多人都会关心你啊!

    但是你现在觉得比较好就行了。每天比昨天好点点,那么你就很快乐

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  2. 你还好吧?我觉得你还有很多心事咯。。。别撇在心里,和你一位信任的过的朋友说吧~还有很多人在关心你。。。要开开心心的过每一天。。。加油吧~

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  3. actually i really hope to noe who r leaving me such a long comment... pls leave a name for me before u leave any comment... thx alot....

    ya... i'm ok de... i will learn how to protect myself...k...hehe~~ believe me~~ bcoz i'm yee feng!!!hahaha~~

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  4. wey can you please ar dont simply think ar
    everything will be okay wan
    and even got anything happen we still will be your side kay
    chill!!!!cant wait for you to come back




    stephanie

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  5. stephanie,
    haha~~ okay la.. now i'm okay de... dont worry la... 1,2,3 SMILE!!! haha~~ so stupid... ==

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  6. lol
    really stupid for the last comment you post for steph.

    im going to quit for this topic.
    cz i sure will think negatively with this kind of topic.
    so,im speechless.
    but,iff got anything happen again,
    come and tell me.
    i'll bang ni chu tou!

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  7. siao deng deng..dun think negative things~~
    shoo~~shoo~~shoo~~all gv it fly away..
    make me worry u nia..
    many ppl still vry concern u d..
    dun think tat u r alone..
    rmbr we r still here!!
    we r waiting u cum bec!!!
    FAST cum bec ya..^^

    hv anything just tell me la..
    sms or ph call or msn or skype..
    ohya..u now move out frm ur uncle house le?

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  8. okay okay~~ now i'm okay de... I feel better ady.. dont worry abt me de... i will be okay... and i will go back m'sia and contact u all...ok...

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  9. yeah!
    it's really a good news for me!
    hahaha!

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